When I work up this morning, my mind went blank. I usually have a topic to write about that has been rolling around in my head for the week. I also usually write it out over the weekend and have it ready for today, to post. Part of the challenge is the fact that I cannot believe that is December already and my mind is thinking of holidays, college classes and finals, birthday party, kids’ school schedules, budget, wrapping gifts, etc. My mind is everywhere!
I struggle to find calm, to be still, to sit and breathe. With all of these ideas, needs, questions, and to-dos running in circles in my mind, I am really sucking at all of these abilities. Failing. Badly.
Finding peace and stillness; by reading, listening, and breathing. This all sounds lovely, but I struggle to carve out time to do it, and then when I do, I am so tired, I can’t see straight. So, I already know a goal for 2023, to figure out a way to make this happen. To make stillness a priority and create habits that help make this a successful action that will benefit my mind, healthy, and body (and soul). Unprogramming me will be hard. I have spent the past 20 years of my life working (usually more than 1 job), running in a million directions, serving on boards, and committees, volunteering, taking care of kids, family, and a home, etc. You all get me.
I am going to have to figure out how to slow down. How to be intentional with my time. How to say “no” more. And not feel bad about it. How to give but still retain something of goodness for me and my family. The season of slow…hope I find a way to arrive there and you as well.